Mukade

K and L were actually playing nicely together. We just got home from picking L up from daycare, and the two of them were on the sofa (lying side by side) watching a My Little Pony episode on the iPad. Little N was asleep in the carseat, so i jumped into dinner prep, (foolishly) thinking i might actually get it done by myself tonight before someone woke up or cried! All of a sudden, L's saying he sees a mushi. Then he comes over screaming saying there is a mushi down his shirt. I lift up his shirt to see a mother&&";43: mukade (about 7cm long perhaps) crawling all over his chest!!! Aaarrgh, now I'm screaming, so of course he gets more scared. Managed to get it off him, but he says the top of his shoulder hurts--there is a single red dot and it is red all around. I called J who googled it and said to put him under a hot shower (apparently over 42deg water will kill the venom.) so despite my desire to call an ambulance and have him rushed to hospital, we shower, then bath. (And L says it doesn't hurt, so I'm no longer sure if he has been bitten or not anyway now.). It also doesn't seem to be swollen or anything, so hoping he's ok.

Now I'm shitscared tho, wondering where "the other one" is--apparently they hang out in pairs. Ugh. And of course I can't sit on the sofa for fear of having one if those horrid creatures climbing over me, or worse Little N;(

Mukade suck!!!
Fwiw, the mukade is outside on the verandah in a ziplock bag. If you kill them by squashing them, they let off some smell to alert other mukade to come attack their predator--so dint want that happening. Will either throw out in Nama gomi or drown in oil, or boil to death in boiling water.

Still shuddering thinking about it:(

Grateful on Mother's Day

Today I am feeling grateful.

Grateful to my mum for being such a wonderful mum! She is the kind of mum I wish I could be, yet I fail to be like her in so many ways;( I admire her calm level-headedness, and her parenting style, and am grateful to be able to call her my mum. I am grateful to her and dad for being here during the first month of all my kids lives, to support me and J and help out with the older kids. I really believe that I would not have gotten through the first month (especially with L and now N) without their support .


I am feeling grateful for having three beautiful, healthy children grace their lives to me and J. Though they piss me off sometimes, and I am still so far away from bring the mother I wish I could be (see above!) today I am especially grateful for them being here with us.

I had some very sad news last night, news that still makes me well up with tears.
A friend lost her baby at 33weeks. Baby had been doing well, then seemed to stop moving, so my friend went for a check up and was told that the baby's heart had stopped beating. Their second child, a beautiful baby girl, was stillborn.
I cannot imagine how my friend must be feeling, or how she could get over such a tragedy, but she is doing her best to be positive and I am grateful to her and her family for being able to get through this difficult time. And reminding me that life is just so precious.

So today I am taking stock of my life and feeling grateful for being given the chance to be a mother to my three beautiful kids, and grateful to them for putting up with a mess-of-a-mother that I am......meanwhile I am hopeful that one day soon I will be able to be more like my mum and the kind of mother I wish (and believe) I can be.