Grateful on Mother's Day

Today I am feeling grateful.

Grateful to my mum for being such a wonderful mum! She is the kind of mum I wish I could be, yet I fail to be like her in so many ways;( I admire her calm level-headedness, and her parenting style, and am grateful to be able to call her my mum. I am grateful to her and dad for being here during the first month of all my kids lives, to support me and J and help out with the older kids. I really believe that I would not have gotten through the first month (especially with L and now N) without their support .


I am feeling grateful for having three beautiful, healthy children grace their lives to me and J. Though they piss me off sometimes, and I am still so far away from bring the mother I wish I could be (see above!) today I am especially grateful for them being here with us.

I had some very sad news last night, news that still makes me well up with tears.
A friend lost her baby at 33weeks. Baby had been doing well, then seemed to stop moving, so my friend went for a check up and was told that the baby's heart had stopped beating. Their second child, a beautiful baby girl, was stillborn.
I cannot imagine how my friend must be feeling, or how she could get over such a tragedy, but she is doing her best to be positive and I am grateful to her and her family for being able to get through this difficult time. And reminding me that life is just so precious.

So today I am taking stock of my life and feeling grateful for being given the chance to be a mother to my three beautiful kids, and grateful to them for putting up with a mess-of-a-mother that I am......meanwhile I am hopeful that one day soon I will be able to be more like my mum and the kind of mother I wish (and believe) I can be.