3rd tri fatigue

I just can't seem to find any energy these days.

It is almost hard to believe that pregnancy fatigue could come back with such a vengance and be WORSE than 1st trimester fatigue. I guess at this stage, I am also sporting an extra 10, 11, 12kilos - most likely more?? (haven't jumped on the scales recently, too scary) which is not helping. Getting up from any kind of sitting position is a major task.

I feel sorry for K, but I have been a crabby, snappy, tired, and easily annoyed basketcase (more than usual anyway) for the last few days. I put it down mainly to over-doing myself by going to a wedding on the weekend, having PIL over for the weekend (to look after K while we were at the wedding, but we (I) still had to look after them when I got home and the next day since they stayed over), and then planning a morning tea-playdate for the following day. I am buggered.

After our friends left yesterday, both K and I went down for a lovely nap, then hit the sack early last night to sleep in til the lovely time of 9am this morning. Yep, 9AM!!!!!! You would think that would get me back on track, but I was yawning again by midday, and had to lie down with K at 1pm for a nap (which I had, but she didn't, oh well, at least she was VERY VERY good and just lay there in bed with me (me thinks) reading and tearing up tissues while I was passed out, haha! )

But I still feel like crap, tired and have a headache now too. Considering that K didn't actually nap today, we can probably get her down to sleep early tonight, so I might just have to join her, at like 8pm! I know that sleeping too much can sometimes have the opposite effect, but I am even yawning again as I type this, so figure it best to at least give it a chance again tonight in the hope that I am able to bounceback to somewhat human by Thursday for playroup.

And J is away again this week, so while I don't have to be making proper dinners, which helps, it also means that poor K is getting no active-rough-and-tumble-type play at all, since I am just too wasted to stand up half the time.

This tiredness sucks. The rain (currently SNOW here actually) and cold outside doesn't help either.

the last few days

Had a really fantastic day on Tuesday when a friend from when we were on high school exchange in Nagasaki came to visit. She is now living in NY and back visiting for a week (for a friend's wedding). It was about a year and a half ago when we caught up on her last trip back to Japan (for Nooh's wedding!!)Last time we went out to Shimokitazawa and found a quaint little "wa" place. This time she was kind enough to come ALL the way out to visit us on the other side on town to where she is staying and be the 2nd visitor in our new house!!!!

K was excited to see her, and kept on saying that she was going to say "hello" and "nice to meet you" when she arrived, but went a bit shy when friend actually turned up. But this was overcome with some play time with R and K and a tennis ball on the balcony. From then on she was over excited about it all, playing up a bit during lunch (not eating properly etc) and just trying to show off for the rest of the day!!

It was soooo great catch up - I can't believe that we have known each other for 15years, and have always managed to catch up every couple of years whenever we are in the same city: after exchange when back in Bris, when I used to come to Tokes for JET conferences, and now again while she is visiting Japan!! Looking forward to the next catch up - it might have to be in NY (if only I could swing *THAT* one, lol).......But it was cool this time, because it was the first time I have been able to have her over to my house (apart from parents house in Bris). I stayed with her once when I came to Tokyo one time for a Jamiroquai concert, but this was her first time ever to see my place. I am kinda happy that we now have a place that we can entertain people in (if they are willing to travel all the way to get to us, lol!!)

K missed her nap on Tuesday as she was having such a good time, so she had a mini-melt down at about 7:30pm, and then was sound asleep at 8pm Tuesday night, and didn't wake up until 8am Wed morning. She can do ok without her nap it is really only the last 10-15mins, usually after 7pm when she starts to really lose it, however, it again cemented in my mind that she still needs her naps during the day to keep us all sane at night! I am happy for her to be awake until 9pm or so at night anyway, as it gives her time with J after he gets home from work, and there are no melt-downs as she is not overtired.

Then, after our fabulous day on Tuesday, for some reason things have gone downhill yesterday and today (warning - venting starts here!!) : I am feeling pretty crappy and everything (and I mean *everything*) is pissing me off, little things like:

Waking up (again)dry reaching into the toilet bowl.

Can't find a bloody Mizuho bank (or even atm) anywhere near here, or the ones that are around don't have a carpark and are too far to walk to. Ended up finding an atm near playgroup, but think I may have to change banks or something....

the fact that K won't keep her arms in the childseat seat belt in the car. I yelled at her in the car when out and about on Wed - forgetting that I had the windows down, and some old fart outside on the other side of the road gave me a filthy look. aaaarrrgggh

I have been having almost constant headaches for 2days now.

and I am super bloated and just general icky feeling, including some lower abdominal pain.

I am not concentrating on things at all- driving at the moment is not a good thing as I find myself not paying enough attention.....

My computer is giving me the shits at the moment - keeps on playing up, freezing, doing funky things. I haven't been on facebook for a while as the inbox there freezes and doesn't open for me half the time.

last night I opened the door to the "pantry" (old cupboard we are using in makeshift time until we get new cupboards in the kitchen, probably after the fridge arrives this weekend) and not one, not two but three freakin' tins of random tinned food jumped out at me, and of course, made these big nasty holes in the floor - freakin' tateuri and their cheap-shit lino floors that can't stand up to anything. There are holes and scratches all over the place, which I then get into trouble from J from because I am not careful enough, and it is not normal to drop so much stuff. My mum always did say I was like a bull in a china shop, though.....

oh, and bloody Japanese TV is really giving pissing me off. What was the point of getting a fantsy pants 46inch TV, when there is nothing but mind-numbing crap to watch?

Not a good 2 days overall, but just because of the little things pissing me off. I guess I am tired and worn out (from what I don't know, as I don't do much except sit around thinking about how tired I am, lol), as K and I both went down for a 3 (THREE!!) hour nap yesterday afternoon, and a 2 hour nap this afternoon when we got back from playgroup.

Hoping that I can get over it soon though. I don't like feeling bleugh and crabby all the time. And cracking up at K and her antics only tends to make my head hurt even more. sigh.